Return

Well, it's been a long time between posts. In my last post, over 6 months ago, I was positive about my return to running and the progress I was making. There have been a lot of ups and downs since.

Following my positivity over running I started going backwards - really struggling with even short runs. It was very depressing and several times I contemplated giving up. I dropped my distance so I was doing only a few short (3k) runs a week and then slowly built my way back up to 10 kilometres and further. Unfortunately, in January just as I was really starting to consistently manage my long runs I hit another wall and ended up back doing mid-distance runs at best. Where I was doing at least one 10k+ run a week, I now haven't completed one in the last month.

With regards to my wrist, I recently saw the surgeon again for a 12 month follow up. He seemed pretty happy with how I'd progressed. I can't say I share his view - I feel that a year on I've had little to no improvement in my function - if anything it's a little worse. I know I had to try it, but it can be very disappointing when you're hopes are raised only to find you've achieved nothing. I'm still doing the exercises, but sometimes I wonder why.

I've also had a few really bad stints of muscle pain in my neck. I get a knot in the muscle on the side of my neck so large it's visible. It's very painful, and I've been seeing a physiotherapist to help with it. Luckily I've got really good physio coverage with my current employer, so it's not costing anything. The knot occurs when I spend a lot of time driving and when I don't sit correctly at a desk, so I have to be pretty careful with how I carry myself when I do both of these things - long car trips are pretty much guaranteed to set me off.

Finally though, the big issue: my syringomyelia. Over the last 6 months I noticed I was having a few issues which were probably attributable to my syringomyelia: I was losing strength and sensation in my left (good) hand. My dizzy spells were coming more frequently, with more "heavy" spells. I also had two new symptoms, or at least I noticed them for the first time - I was having issues with bladder control and my temperature was soaring. This last was a strange one - I'd find myself feeling a bit odd, perhaps a bit cranky or irritable and my partner would notice my skin was boiling. If I caught it I'd take a cold shower and would feel better, but it was often hard for me to self identify that there was a problem.

On the back of these issues I went and had some MRIs and met with my neurosurgeon. He wasn't 100% sure what was causing the problem, but thought it may be due to fluid from the syrinx pooling in the dural sac and putting pressure on my spinal cord from the outside. He referred me to another neurosurgeon specialising in syringomyelia who sent me for some more MRIs (these ones which could potentially see the flow of fluid, but might not be able to if all the titanium in my neck interfered with the scan). After falling asleep in the MRI tube again I'm due to go back to find out the results tomorrow. I'm not sure what to hope for - a clear diagnosis may require surgery, or I may be stuck just managing symptoms.

Finally, just to top things off I'm getting married in a little over a week. I'm such a lucky man to have someone who will share the burden of this illness with me.

Shouldering the Burden

In the ongoing effort to improve my running, during the week I visited my physio. He filmed me walking and running, and we then reviewed the footage to see where I had problems.
When I was walking, my gait was OK. The physio could see where the hip exercises I had been doing were helping, and I was generally pretty balanced. Moving into a jog though, and the issues started to become apparent. I was dropping in my hips, so that rather using momentum and swinging my legs through to run, I was forced to push up on every step, greatly increasing the effort required. I was also carrying my right arm very low. However, it was when I tried to push into a slightly faster run that the extent of how many deficits I have became clear.
Rather than using my arms to rotate and counter-rotate my torso to assist in running, my right shoulder protracts and I don't counter-rotate. This throws my whole gait out of whack, so now it looks like I've got to get back to working on my shoulder as well as my core, hip and glutes. There's a long way to go yet.

Master Splint-er

On Tuesday I returned to the hand surgeon, this visit marked 4 months since the operation. At first he was a bit worried that I'd made no progress, but on further investigation he realised that I was weaker than he'd expected, and things were working, just not at the level he expected. Apparently when undergoing tendon transfer operations the muscles usually weaken, but due to my condition they weakened more than normal. As such, what is typically a 6 month recovery is likely to take me twice as long.
He did seem to think I had some improved strength in my thumb and tricep, which are related to the same nerve path, so maybe something is healing back towards the source of the problem as well.
There was some more good news though: I don't need to go back to see him or the OT for another two months. That'll save some money. Even better news though is that I don't need to wear the splint. It was getting pretty cumbersome and annoying, so I'm glad to see the back of it. The first thing I noticed though was that without it I was having problems typing, so now I'm back to wearing my old wrist brace while I type.

Hip-ster

Given I've been seeing a musculo skeletal physiotherapist for about a month now it seems like a good time for an update on my efforts to resolve the problem of my foot dragging when I jog.

I've been doing a lot of exercises to try and strengthen some of the smaller muscles in my hips, core and buttocks. I've done a few sessions with an ultrasound to identify which muscles are working and which aren't. It's interesting to the complex interplay of muscles on screen as you perform small movements, and how slight changes in position have considerable changes in the muscles being used.

As it stands, I have several deficits in my right side which I'm overcoming by overcompensating with my hip flexor and obliques. Thinking on it, it makes me realise areas other than running which I've been impacted, such as getting in and out of cars and standing up without swinging into it.

So far I've noticed a little improvement - standing up is a lot easier, and I'm getting good feedback from the physio. How about the acid test of running? Unfortunately I've been pretty bad at keeping up with my running lately. I've only been going for a few short runs each week, although on these I've been able to run more than shuffle and pick my speed up. It will be interesting to see how much more I can improve.

Splint-ered Hopes

Today I returned to see the hand surgeon, it has been nearly 11 weeks since my operation. He was happy with how things were healing and thought I had good stability in my wrist, but now needed to work on building up the muscles and their association in my brain so that I get the full benefit. On the unfortunate side, one of my fears was realised and I have to keep my splint on. For another 7 weeks! I suppose it could be worse, but it's frustrating - it will mean I'll have had a cast or splint on for over 4 months.
I also realise that since talking about running and fitness at the start of the year I haven't returned to the subject. I've actually done reasonably well, despite a slight dip during my operation. I've recently achieved my goal of running 10k non stop, and despite being embarrassingly slow I'm proud of myself. I'm now in a bit of a holding pattern - I want to increase my distance, but haven't found/devised a program to keep building. In addition to that, I've just been to see a physiotherapist specialising in musculo-skeletal issues, who is trying to help me with my right leg, which drags a bit. Apparently both my hips are quite week, the right one more so, and this is causing my issues. I've started some exercises to try and increase my hip strength and hopefully help my leg, and therefore my running.

So, overall, quite good news on my health at the moment. My hand is coming along, I'm fit, healthy (I went for a full check up at the GP a few month ago and my results were "boringly OK") and thanks to some focussed effort on watching what I eat am the slimmest I've ever been as an adult. Now to get this splint off...

Update

Yesterday I returned to the surgeon for the 6 week follow up after my operation. The original plan was that I would get the fibreglass/goretex cast at the two week mark, then wear that for another 4 weeks. Unfortunately, things didn't go to plan.
After a few weeks of having the fibreglass cast on, I noticed some redness around the knuckle of my index finger. Closer inspection revealed that I had a sore near the edge of the cast. It turns out that when I was typing the cast would press against my hand. Given there's very little muscle in my hand, it pushed the skin up against the bone and I ended up with a pressure sore. The OT cut the cast back to try and alleviate the problem, but this only shifted it back further up my hand.
So, the remedy was to replace the cast with a splint, a moulded plastic sheet running from halfway up my fingers most of the way down my forearm. It covers the top half of my arm, and is held on with velcro scraps. I wear a "sock" under it to protect my skin. It's not as covenient as the cast, I can't get it wet and have to change the sock.
Despite this, my surgeon was very happy with how things had healed, and gave me some exercises to do. Now I go back to to the OT to get the splint straightened to a neutral position, keep doing my exercises and go back to the surgeon in 4 weeks.
The best news though? I can drive again.

Housebound

I've got to admit I've been very lax in updating this blog despite having a reasonable amount of time on my hands - not driving to work adds about an hour and a half to my day. I'm not driving to work, of course, because I'm still wearing the cast from my wrist operation at the start of April.
The operation itself went well - apparently when they cracked me open everything was as they expected it (healthy red muscle fibre where they thought it would be and sickly white where I have nerve damage) and everything moved where it needed to go. I had very little soreness, there was only one day nearly a week after the operation when I needed to use the painkillers they provided, and I suspect this was because I overextended myself.
The first two weeks were very frustrating though. I had to wear a large plaster and gauze cast to start off - they give you this split cast so that there is room for any swelling of the wound. Unfortunately, you can't get the cast wet, which meant no running and showering with a plastic bag on my arm. The running ban was particularly disappointing as I'd worked up to three 8k runs a week (I even knocked one out the night before my operation). To add insult to injury, the cast was quite heavy and bulky, so it was pretty awkward.
The good news is that after 2 weeks of the plaster cast I changed over to a goretex and fibreglass cast. This one is much slimmer, lighter and can get wet. I went out for a run the first day I got it and discovered the 2 week break had done me no favours in the fitness department, I think it will take me a few more weeks even now to get back to where I was.
As good as the new cast is though, my wrist is still set at a very awkward angle (it's curled in at about 45 degrees) which is making a lot of common tasks pretty tough. As usual, I need a hand with my hand. Today marks three weeks until I go back to the surgeon to have my cast removed and start therapy, I'm looking forward to it.